Willpower

when will
                i
succumb
to the
             little
whispers?


quickly turning,

into screams.

pushing on, "my heart!"

making it race.



Better yet...

when will you?

i hope you dont mind

do you mind if i sweep while you mop?

if i hate,
while you love.

if i stand,
while you dont?

do you mind,
if i respectfully, interject

if i change while,
you stay the same

if i burn,
while you rain?

Do you mind?

these are the things that fill my brain.

You're right.

I am insane.

Crazy, about you.

i hope you dont mind

much like clay

cackle.

"you gotta love it.


this is what you live for."

"yes sir

I have to shake your hand,

thank you for

your business"

"Whys that?"

"Im leaving this business soon"

"This is what you live for...

Farewell, have a good die, Mr. Yon"

"yes sir"

sigh.

zoned out

something of a daze.

he stood there.

Fixated.

he sat there.

mouth gaping.

he shook the,

violet, or wait,

is it purple?

No, lilac.

i wish he would

sit and stay still

for me to capture

the correct hue.

he remains sitting.

mouth gaping

Fixated.

my last envelope

watch.

as i do things for your fancy.

listen.

as i scream my heart out for you.

smell

as i sweat, plummeting for your pleasure.

taste

as blood is drawn from my lips.

touch.
   me.

as i dare you.

touch.
   me.

where you wish.

just don't leave fingerprints

One can blackmail with such.

good for you that i've used,

my last envelope.

After this one,

i won't be needing any more.

I hope.

me out of rhy.

you can either be brainwashed

by them

or take a risk

with me

One choice.

Two different destinies.

ill be around,

until you start detesting me.

Blissfully.

locusts in my shorts... shaking.

Oh come on, Mr. Yon!

You know I'm "sick",
with it.

the predicate,
good etiquette,

for  the sentences.

"STOP DANCING"

What do you think,
this is.

Hoping to stop, but meeting all greens.

grab and twist.

Turn 360 degrees.

cutting it close.

But the          is always                                                                          curb
as far as it seems

unless,

you're driving in the fast lane.

Then.

you're left,


to your own judgement.

Don't crash.

Everything is not always what it seems.

conformity v. reality

its so easy to
miss, the scum,
   dirt, grime,
          dust.

when you're
   not
looking.

its so hard

to

forget.

once you've seen it.

"Cleanliness is next to godliness!"


god must not be real.

Recycled. Spears and trash, piles of.

i have nothing to say.

about a red broom,


          broken.

Quickly

discarded.

Dust thrown away.

i have nothing to say.

Quickly

broken.

          Discarded,


swiftly into,

cardboard castles.

a walk is a walk

today i learned something new.

how to close my eyes, and walk a straight line.

today i reinforced an old lesson.

keep your eyes open, and always look both ways.

things are never what they seem to be.

appetite.

my mind tends to wander.

i(t) feel(s) mostly empty

except for thoughts
of her
         you know

(of you, if you're
   reading this)

(

with half-smile

half-bitten lip

        you know

of me.


with bruised hands,
on your bruised hips.

with bruised hips
in my hands.

)

my mind tends to wonder.

shameless ignorance

i know nothing, 

of poets

besides the repeated names 

and worthless praise

i know nothing,
 of poetry,

no formats, 

hell i can't even name five poets.

i know,

i don't quite care.

i dabble and scribble,

and scrabble,

     in brambles.

i know nothing, 

of poetry.

but when,

i touch pen to paper.

poetry knows,

something of me.

fallin' angels

tell me of your love

oh!

how it sings -

while angels cry.


tell me of your rebellious ways,

lips puckered,


                                 clouds.


with your head in the


oh!


Cry to me of your old ways.

a sin to step

leftrightleftrightleftright

whats left?

tell me of your wings,

as we ascend to ecstasy.



Show me your heart -

better yet,


look in my childish grip,

For it is there.

obvious, I know.

stay with me.
together we'll find happiness.
everyone deserves someone.
people need people.
hell, if not, this all would be pointless.
a person cannot survive without love; or freedom.
negative experiences make for negative people.
i'm glad you're you.
everything I want, you

know you're special to me.
obvious, I know.
how many times have I told you, now?
lets run away.
everyone is forming a line.
run!

twoday

One day

if you let them, then things might change.

One day

if you welcome it, then you might realize many things.

One day

I'll ask you again.

One day

you might have something different to say.

One day.

own a pizza shop

I sit there, enthralled.


Step. Step. Step.

Concentration s h a t t e r e d,

                                   p  i          e c    e            s

s c a t t e r e d on the floor.

"Are you in college?"

Funny question.

Conversation.

"You know, maybe one day you'll own a pizza shop, who knows?"

I do.


Cackles scream silently.

"Keep your self occupied."

I commence to sweep the

                                     p  i          e c    e            s,

restored.

oddities

I was,

shopping for milk.

100% whole to be 100%.

I noticed,

false accomplishments on
the walls.

Plaques.

and

Awards.

I wonder how soapy the water might be.

intrigued

Intrigued.

Writings on the wall, read.

Never shall ,you, pass.

Barriers; broken down.

Sweat stained tears, bed sheets shoot across the grasp of your reality.

Lust?

No.

Love!

No.

Yes!!

Stop!
It goes on.

Exhale.

Distanced from within.

Kaleidoscope daydreams; leave me sifting through the rubble.

I'm looking for what used to be here.

Barriers.

-

"let me in",
          back-peddling in defeat.

rinse cycle

birth.


change 

Eyes opened.


change

Eyes closed.

Mind opened.

change
Mind closed.
-

So much happens in the blink of an eye, but also in the absence of one.

Cashes to ashes.

From florists to
                       graves.

Maggots, dirt, putrid stench and bone.

We all end, one in the
                                same.


death.

-

oh well
     we'll
just
laugh knock it       o
                              f
                                f

farewell to the forgotten

rip.

deVOID

Every day here. Is another day Wasted.

Time to unlock the door to the
                                             basement.
           monster
Let the   man        out.

Be it

a

monster                                                           One in the same.

or a

man.

We all seek to: Explore. Destroy. Conquer.

so much is lost between the lines

i have something to say

I think it has been long overdue.

that i tell you, i despise the day

That I met you.

now I wake up and ask myself

Where have you been?

youve never been there when

I've needed you.

never again will i be able to say

I'm glad you're here.

i wish you had told me

Come with me. Hold my hand.

but instead you let me go

guts

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Love > hate     
teach me.

Let me show you.